About the day after my last post, I went to see my third shrink for the first time. I awkwardly informed him of my stuff, which was all the worse with my father in the room. I guess I kept it fairly honest. Well, besides the B/P statistics of 2013. But hey, I'm not giving up on this stupid ED that easily.
So he put me on Lexapro! Woo. In a way, I am sort of relieved to finally do something about my depression (the loss of appetite side-effect adds a whole lot of appeal to the deal), but man, that shit does not agree with me! The first night I started it, I took 5mg with the Naproxen I have been on lately for my shoulder, and spent hours that night curled up in a ball and crying my eyes out from the stomach and head pain. Not to mention the sore throat so bad I can't even drink anything.
Well, with my whole sore throat and the very little appetite I have had lately, I actually have not been stuffing my face! Today I have eaten
black olives
10 chickpeas
a fourth cup of some noodle dish
a few bites of pizza.
I could have gone without the pizza, but I can't take my meds on an empty stomach. Plus, I probably worked it off with the water polo I had today. The most annoying part of today was having my stomach growl constantly, and awful noisily. But even that was sort of nice; an intro back into self-control. Hopefully I can keep this going! But I probably won't. Eh.
Well, I love all of you with all that's left of my heart, and wish all of you the best!
<3 Wren
I'm proud of you that you started to treat your depression! It sounds like you're going through a rough time thus please know we are all there for you and support you if you feel lonely or weak ♥. Get well soon especially your throat.
ReplyDeleteManipulated-life said it all. I really hope you feel better. And that the meds help. I love hearing from you, as always. Xx
ReplyDeleteYou don't have to be poetic dear. You can just talk about how you feel. I hope the meds work! I took lexapro and it helped a lot.
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