Update
Had to eat with my parents, and it was a meal that used to be one of my favorites. I ate as little as I could, but everyone is used to my binging, swimmer self, so I couldn't get away with smaller portions.
I feel horrible about it, but sometimes my family disgusts me. They all eat so much as a foodie family, and sometimes I blame them for my disgusting, piggy habits that led to.... well, this. Please don't judge me for being such a horrible person. Sometimes I hate myself enough for the both of us.
Anyway, the total for that one meal ended up being around 700, so my total intake for today is:
1360
Ouch. I can't help it... In an hour or so I am probably going to go purge.
I didn't even really exercise. I just burned around 150 from to and back from school, so that leaves me with a total of 1210.
I am such a disgusting, fat, horrible pig.
Stay stronger than me, my friends
<3 Wren
Aw, it's ok. I'm sure I will binge tonight. I've had 700 calories and I am so freakin hungry. I just know I'm going to end up eating my whole tub of peanut butter. :'(
ReplyDeleteawe, don't let a little hiccup get you down too much, i know feeling like you've eaten too much sucks a lot but it happened.. don't let it knock your focus. just try keep your head in the game & hope you're well lovely ♥
ReplyDeleteHey hun, I just started following your blog :)
ReplyDeleteI know it's hard, but try to not let one slip-up get you down too much. You won't gain 5lb or something ridiculous from one meal, and tomorrow is a new day. There's nothing you can do about it now, but you can go forward and learn from it and make each day better. Besides, if you're a swimmer I'm betting its still less than you'd normally have to eat.
I hope you feel a little better in the morning <3 xx