Sorry 'bout That!

Hello, everyone!

So sorry about the last post, kind of vague, I know. My parents were getting really picky about my weight, saying my face is looking thinner, I exercise too much, I apparently shouldn't enjoy salad, yada yada yada.

     -So, basically, they PREFER me overweight. Apparently, being a healthy weight is the same as being eating disordered in their minds.

     -My main exercise is polo, 3 times a week for two hours a day. I mentioned wanting to join a large swim place, to get better at swimming, and they immedietly accused me of overexercising. Seriously? I want to improve my performance in my two favorite sports, and that makes me have mental issues?

     -I mentioned that I love salad, and they said that that is unnatural and that I must be hurting myself

     -I asked if a meal was healthy, and they basically shoved their accusations down my throat.

They say that, since I've been through this before, they are more "aware". If you ask me, they're just overly paranoid. Most of those things are not related to my issues at all.

They piss me off.

Well, I think I mentioned that I am starting the skinny girl diet. Today is going along fine, but yesterday was dreadful. I felt emotional and depressed, and ate a shitload. The most disappointing part of that whole ordeal was when I went up to my room to throw up into empty energy drink bottles.

Today I've been very.... idk, hormonal or something? Earlier today I was genuinely happy, feeling sociable, strong, and nearly high I felt so great. It lasted for about an hour; after that wonderful, short time I felt more depressed than I felt in months. Plus, I have a headache.

Cheesestick                     45
Altoid Mints                     23
Carrots                             0
Lettuce                             0
Dressing                          70

The most I am allowed today is 450 calories, unless I exercise it off.

Love you all! I can try to update later, but I am trying to stay off the Ana community at home.

<3 Wren