Video Games

Hello.

I don't know what I want anymore. I've nearly gone full-bulimic.

I realized, if I don't eat breakfast, fasting the rest of the day is so much easier.

I've gained 2 pounds.

Disgusting.

I am so sorry I have been such a horrible blogger, but I will try harder.

With everything; restricting, exercising, thinking, purging, living

I've started writing a ton more poetry. I like writing poems.. They express myself so much better than I can through just words.

Here's one I wrote recently, while listening to my favorite Lana Del Rey song Video Games.

It's not too terribly good, but it is perhaps the truest thing I ever wrote.

It's called "Please Excuse Me"

Hello. 

How am I? 

Just fine, thank you. 

How are you? 

  

Wait, don’t leave 

I lied 

I’m not ok. 

There are a few things I have to say 

  

Well, how to start? 

I don’t know… 

Maybe you should just leave 

No, if you do my heart may cleave 

  

I’ve… not been good 

Especially lately 

I must confess, I messed up 

Please listen or I may erupt 

  

I’m a liar 

A thief and a monster 

One of the cruelest kind 

  

I lie so I can trust 

And steal so I can give 

Though all I give are false hopes 

And all who trust know not how I cope 

  

I am a demon 

Forged from the depths 

I sink my teeth in my family’s heart 

Then suck until nothing is left with to part 

  

I toy with their feelings 

Ruin their dreams 

Tinkering with lives until nothing is as it seems 

  

Oh, here I am 

Rambling again 

Just please keep ignoring me 

I guess even you will never see.