I just realized something. If I keep losing weight at the rate I have been (1-1.5 lbs dropped a day), I will reach my first goal weight within a week. I know, it's still fucking huge and fat, but honestly, for the past two years I had so much binging and purging my weight stayed pretty constantly around 170.
Does anyone here listen to Kate Nash? I recently discovered her via another blog, and I have been listening to her nearly constantly. She has a song about Ana called "Skeleton." It and "Me and Mia" by Ted Leo and the Pharmacists have to be my favorite ED songs; I like how upbeat they are :)
Well, today was fairly uneventful. My insomnia kicked in last night, so I spent most of the day at school either half-dead or asleep. I spent all night zooming around my room either cleaning or doing sit-ups. I just hate taking pills though, for anything. I never took my Prozac when that was prescribed, cus I hate the feeling of something messing with my head.
So far today, I haven't done very well on my eating :( If only today was my sport day, it wouldn't be as bad. I think I need to find a set calorie range soon, and it might help me with the self control and all. Hey, today I'm just glad I didn't binge.
Cheese stick 50
1/2 English muffin 60
with 1/2 tbs Peanut butter 40
Orange juice 60
Salad with lite ranch 100
Rice crispy treat :( 350
And I haven't even reached dinner yet. Honestly, if I hadn't given into that treat, I would have been fine, even with the muffin and pb my rents practically stuffed down my throat. They hate my habit of skipping breakfast, but at least they know it's a normal thing for me. I am nearly positive I haven't been caught.
Wish me luck
Stay strong!
<3 Wren
Oooh man! I am in love with that thinspo pic! Gah, I know exactly what you mean with SSRI's messing with your head! I used to take 5mgs of Lexapro and I felt like I couldn't control my head, like someone else had snuck in and was thinking for me. I was battling it trying to keep my true self then eventually lowered my dose. So not fun!! :(
ReplyDeleteYou're doing so well with your weight loss keep up the good work! Have you heard:
"A line allows progress a circle does not"-Bright Eyes
"Creep"-Radiohead
"Skinny Love"-Bon Iver
I love "Creep" and "Skinny Love"! I definatly prefer the Bon Iver version to Birdy's. I looked up the other one, and it's good too. And thank you! :3
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